The Fediverse, for me, scratches the itch of engaging in a digital reflection of a quasi-dystopian cityscape. It feels like an infinite forum composed of some kind of underbelly-populace. But I can’t really put my finger on it.
The simultaneous isolation and proliferation of each post elicits in me the imagery of sitting in a dimly lit bedroom, late into the night, by an open window in a high rise. The warmth of the room contrasted by the cold night breeze that slips in through the window, caressing the curtains into a pretty but melancholic flutter. Memories of the past and pangs of longing flicker in my mind like the twinkle of the city lights that bleed a lightness into the pitch black of the cosmic blanket above. Here, we are alone together.
And the feeling seems to intensify somehow the further I wade into the space. This dark underbelly seems of infinite appetite for my curiosity. In both directions–driving me forever deeper, and consuming all that I am and can offer.
Every other platform is only a new apartment block or office building somewhere deeper in this winding maze of streets and shadows.
It seems a manifest sadness; but one filled with mystery and potential. Enough, at least, to stoke longing. Not regret, but something close enough to feel as intense but retain a sweetness in flavour.
And yet, this ambiguity of the sentiment–the uncertainty regarding whether it is good or bad, sad or reassuring, or what it might even really be–appears intrinsic to the experience of this place itself, rather than a problem to be solved.
It is what it is, or at least what it feels like: the gentrification of the void.